Getting the Wheels Turning

I spent a few hours brainstorming story ideas last night with my writer friend, we'll call him Wright, and we came up with a great character sketch of the protagonist of the story we're collaborating on. It was fun to throw things out there. Wright encourages me to let go with whatever, even if it's stupid. And he never treats me like my ideas are shit. I love that. I can see the two of us getting more comfortable disagreeing with each other's contributions, but that's the idea: we want to get more relaxed working together. Last night we came up with some great stuff.

The point is this: I want to be able to explore my creativity, but I'm afraid to look stupid and I've locked my ideas away from myself. I don't allow myself to go very far with my imagination. Wright is pulling me past my boundaries and that's great for my confidence.

He offered to read the article I wrote about anxiety and to read the ones I want to write. I offer to do this for him, but it didn't occur to me until yesterday that he might want to help me with my own writing. I've said in past posts, this guy is very encouraging of my writing. I never realized how much I need that and how wonderful it is to have it. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I feel really fortunate to have found him.

Making Some Bad Decisions

I don't know, sometimes I know I'm making a mistake but I can't help myself. Like with the guy I keep having issues with. We get along great when it comes to writing, and we have a good time hanging out, usually. But at times he makes things more complicated than they need to be and we end up hating each other.

I should just keep my distance but I'm not. We're back to hanging out a lot. We had dinner together yesterday and today. It was nice. He's really encouraging about my writing. He wants me to get published and we've decided to collaborate on a book. He came up with the initial idea and I ran with it so that we now have a good basis for a novel. We have to do some research for turn of the 20th century period and figure out the plot details.

I want someone to encourage my writing and I love the idea of getting a book written finally, but I don't want to go through the drama like before. I'm hoping things are cool this time.