My class let me know what they thought of my story in workshop today. It was cool. They had some criticism. My professor wasn't sure what I was going for and she just seemed unprepared for the type of story I was writing. She seemed to want something realistic, but I'm just burnt out of realistic stories and I needed something different. She did say it was well-written, though.
Today was workout day and I was still nervous in the gym. I was better, however. I'm getting better slightly each week both physically and psychologically.
My applied anthropology class was what made me the happiest today. I volunteered more to the discussion than I have in the past. It felt really good to finally say something. Now I have to speak up in forensic anthropology. That's the only class I haven't said anything in.
Showing posts with label anthropology. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anthropology. Show all posts
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
A Reversal of Expectations
Today ended very differently than I expected. I thought I would fail the quiz this afternoon in forensic anthropology, I thought I wouldn't make any progress on my anxiety, and I thought I would still be clueless about my apathy regarding school.
I didn't feel like my conversation with my counselor this morning led me toward what was troubling me with school, but after my applied anthropology class I studied with a classmate for the quiz. I had fun studying with someone, when I usually study alone. I got an A on the exam pretty much because of today's study session. It was encouraging.
During applied anthropology I actually contributed to the discussion. I know these things sound trivial, but seriously, these are big deals to me. I never speak up in class discussions unless I'm called on. The fact that I offered something without being asked to is major. I need to do that more. I'm going to try to next time I'm in class.
I'm working on myself here. I have goals that seem impossible to reach, but I want to get there anyway. I want to write and be published, but I have so much fear about rejection and exposure. I want to be able to speak in front of people, to instruct or lead a discussion if the necessity arises. I have to start small: going to the gym by myself; writing honestly for essays; speaking in class discussions.
Eventually I want to try to get published, and I want to work in an academic library. I just have to get over my fears.
I didn't feel like my conversation with my counselor this morning led me toward what was troubling me with school, but after my applied anthropology class I studied with a classmate for the quiz. I had fun studying with someone, when I usually study alone. I got an A on the exam pretty much because of today's study session. It was encouraging.
During applied anthropology I actually contributed to the discussion. I know these things sound trivial, but seriously, these are big deals to me. I never speak up in class discussions unless I'm called on. The fact that I offered something without being asked to is major. I need to do that more. I'm going to try to next time I'm in class.
I'm working on myself here. I have goals that seem impossible to reach, but I want to get there anyway. I want to write and be published, but I have so much fear about rejection and exposure. I want to be able to speak in front of people, to instruct or lead a discussion if the necessity arises. I have to start small: going to the gym by myself; writing honestly for essays; speaking in class discussions.
Eventually I want to try to get published, and I want to work in an academic library. I just have to get over my fears.
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