Working This Out

I feel like in the past week I've gotten a little closer to being normal. I spoke up voluntarily in both of my classes. Today was gym day with a friend and I focused a little more on my workout than on the people around me. I know that the meds have a lot to do with that, but I'm okay with that. As I said, I think they allow me to get into the situations I fear and see them the way other people do. I think that if I make a habit out of immersing myself in social situations that scare me, then later when I'm off the meds I can handle them just fine.

I had an argument with the guy I was talking about yesterday, the one who brings me down. He was being odd and acting like I don't spend enough time with him, like I need to be there for him more. It sounded very much like he thinks of me as his girlfriend, which worries me. I've decided not to seek him out at all now. I don't intend to text or call him any more. This is just getting too weird, and honestly, I never really feel very happy when I see him now.