Blah, Monday

I skipped my first class of the day after my counseling appointment. I just wasn't prepared for the workshop.

I'm proud to say that I'm not afraid to participate in workshop, partly because I think the professor, Rebecca, is awesome. I have to submit my story (which I haven't gotten around to writing yet) later this week and the class will be work shopping it next week. A little scary still to be the one work shopped, I have to admit.

I have yet to go to the gym by myself. Yes, I know that sounds stupid, but it's a huge fear of mine. I'm afraid to work out by myself. I think everyone is watching me. I'm determined to get over this fear, though, which is why I asked my ex-husband to be my personal trainer. We met last week to work out at the faculty/staff gym and that was a good hour. I hadn't really exercised in months! I felt so good. I really want to get over this fear so I can go more often, but as it is we can only meet once a week.

This week I need to pull myself together. Wednesday I work out again and I need to focus on relaxing. I need to pull my paper together by Friday and not get nervous about what readers will think. I really need some strength. . .